Thursday, September 24, 2009

I need to get some things off my chest

This is probably a girl only post. So, if you're a male, uh, you may feel uncomfortable. I hope I don't know you personally.

So, as most of you know I am pregnant and now I am within 2 weeks of delivery. (Praise God!) Seriously, I am pretty done. Of course the reality is that 2 weeks from now I will have a newborn to care for. Yikes.

I haven't been blogging for real for some time. It's like I have way too much to say and most of it is probably inflammatory, so I haven't wanted to post. You know, like Obama-care will be a disaster for the country. And if you really want health-care REFORM the Congress will vote to allow insurance companies to compete across state lines-thus doing away with all the unnecessary state mandates which govern health insurance currently. Think Progressive, only for health insurance. And not Government run. Yeah, government-run health insurance will work. When hell freezes over.

See, inflammatory.

Anyways, there are other things on my mind. Like the fact that my daughter has taken Peanut Butter and Jelly sandwiches to school for the last (at least) two weeks straight. I have justified this with organic, sugar-free peanut butter, all-fruit jelly, whole wheat bread, and a sprinkling of flax seed meal mixed into the peanut butter.

And then there's the dessert. I am one of those moms who lets her kids eat dessert. Like almost every night. I don't have the energy to say no, or have some healthier alternative. So, we have dinner and then they can pick whatever dessert we have in the house. I feel guilty. Am I a bad mom because I let my kids have sugar?

I totally let them have fruit snacks, the gelatinous kind which come in all different sorts of shapes, mainly princess shapes. Additionally, I totally give them pop tarts and toaster strudels for breakfast. I know! How bad! At least I try and serve an egg along side it.

And also, I have almost forgotten to serve two different veggies with meals. I sometimes can barely get in one... And I feel bad about that, too. Yeesh, I should get over that. My family probably loves that I've backed off...

And most significantly, instead of my breasts growing with pregnancy, they are growing more lopsided. WHAT in the WORLD, right? Who has ever heard of boobs not growing, only growing worse. Ugh. I hate it. I watch the Victoria's Secret commercials and think, "Yeah, the Bio Fit is exactly what I need to perk these puppies up." But it's not worth the $50 because who knows how the boob situation is going to look in about 6-9 months. I'm thinking I am going to need a more permanent solution...

Barely anything fits right now. My shirts don't even cover my belly fully. This kid better come out at least 8 pounds. But I don't know because of how not-healthy I've been eating. I'll probably end up with a 5 pounder. Oh, I really hope not. I've gained enough weight, I really want a big baby boy.

Well, thanks for hanging with me. I know that eventually I'll be back to actual postings. :)


Mrs. Miller said...

When you have two young children and are about to give birth to a third, you're allowed to say whatever you want...and feed your kids whatever you want. Hey, at least they're getting fed!!

PS - I'm with you on healthcare.

Erin said...

Oh you poor thing. The last little bit of pregnancy stinks. Do NOT, repeat do NOT be too hard on yourself. Feed the girls whatever and get back to "healthier" eating in a few months if not a year. We have dessert every night- yummy. And you look beautiful- the world's idea of beautiful is messed up and sucks- you are beautiful.

PS- I am terrified of Obama-Care.

"Intentionally Katie" said...

Did you pick this title on purpose? Getting things off your chest while talking about boobie issues?

If it wasn't an accident, you're sure clever, sister!

chandy said...

You are already award of my thoughts concerning Pop Tarts. At least you know you are not alone.

Mitchell and Amy Schultz said...

I feel your pain...breastfeeding did a number on me, and pregnancy #2 is not doing them any favors :) And at least you have had your kids naturally. I had what I believe to be a totally unnecessary scheduled C-section, because I live in NJ with the highest C-section rate in the country and doctors that are only concerned with convenience...I'll stop there. But lets just say C-section scar and subsequent pregnancy= total muffin top!!! I'm not even going to get into the healthcare debate, I'm just going to say "Preach-on, sister!"

Whew, anyway saying prayers as your due date approaches.

Jessie said...

Hey Amy,

I actually have my babies via c-section. I like it. :) Okay, I know that's a little crazy, but c-sections are okay with me. Even with the lagging recovery time.

I picked up pop-tarts on sale at Target yesterday Chandra. $2 for 12!

And yes, Katie, I am that clever.

The Maid said...

Awww, your poor lopsided boobies.

I feel for you...because my breasts are perfect and have never looked anything but perky and Victoria's secret-ish.


I can't even shop in VS because they don't make them that big!!!

Sadly, I discovered how lopsided I was one day in a chiropractic xray!!!

How sad is that...the one time a fat girl can look thin..."bones" and I got to see my large, non-symmetrical ta-ta's on the dang x-ray.

Nope, not embarrassed at all. (Sigh.)

I can't wait to meet your boy..and I am glad to know that you sugar your kids up from time to time.

My philosophy is that kids who get a steady diet of sugar do not freak out when you give it to them in public at a party or something. makes our kids less wierd. HAHAHAHAHAHA

How sick is that?

Rock on are so blessed!

The Maid

chandy said...

Unfortunately for me, my boobs all but disappeared after Ethan weaned. I might even be happy with some lopsided ones right now ;)

I loved my c-section too! It was SOOOO much easier to recover from than my vaginal delivery with Elliot.

Heather said...

OH, dear friend. I feel for you. Those last two weeks of pregnancy are MISERABLE...

All usual 'rules' go seriously lax in my house, especially non-essential ones like eating at this point in pregnancy. :shrug:

Thinking about "more permanent solusions" always helped me thru the worst of the pregnancy related body issues too.

HUGS. and more hugs...